Hollow
A Rough Start. It is always a rough start. This is a personal story and a personal complaint. And at this point, I just post these things online to just to vent my kept feelings and let them be in existence. Post them on somewhere where people around me don't know of, where I can freely write things I thought and felt and wished. I hope there isn't anyone who come to stumble upon these stuffs. Tho it's nothing famous or anything, it's still on the internet so there is still a chance of it. This is going to be a really ugly, disoriented essay. Bear yourself. Anyway, today I felt really hollow, empty inside of me. I am in a foreign country at the moment, still adjusting to the new environment and am on a 2 weeks-quarantine, making things slightly distant. I do have friends here. No, actually I don't really know if they are my real friends or not. I just talked to them from time to time but then I would feel really left out on the conversations (both online and offlin...