A Modern Relationship

相互依存ーInterdependence

Seeing things in a different POV.

I wonder do people actually get to experience this particular relationship I have with one particular friend of mine?

I have a friend, besties or best friend forever. Well... I actually consider a lot of people as my friends (very easily to be precise), and I am lucky to be surrounded by many kind-considerate-fun-friends who I call them best friends. 

But,

There is this one bff of mine, let's call this person as A. 

Well, A is a good friend, we both are together through thick and thins of life...somehow it's like we are married or are a couple...anyhow, we are that close to be even teased by even myself or maybe even A too will think the same (we share same brain apparently, we have too many jinxes that one can actually fathom).

We are more than friend but not in a romantic way (A absolutely is against this idea, tho I joked about this several times, but, yes, I do despise the idea too). Our relationship is way too much, but in a considerate way. We still talk stiff at times like we just met a week ago, but in fact we are in our 10th year (again this is a friend-thing). And on the other hand we will send random stuffs we found on internet, things we know that the other would absolutely love, and this one small trigger of randomness eventually leads to a 3-4 hours non-stop chatting. We support one another while at the same time we depend on the other. 

Hence, the title.

All was good, until somehow, we ended up going to the same place together. We are going to study abroad in the same country. (If A reads this or any of my close friend ever reads this, this sentence gives out who A is, I'm apologizing in advance, sorry, A).

Actually, it is a dream come true. But, reality is known to be never of expected. Once it gives you a good thing in life, next, it gives you a bad thing, or something like that.

And I don't need to spell out every letter out, just go check the date of this post, you'll get it.

Seriously, I got depressed because of 'the recent events' and I cling onto A for support, but this dependence is getting out of hand. Recently it's more of a complain than a talk. I dislike it.

Being all inconsiderate to A and just trying to have A to comfort me all the time I feel down. I mean, even if A is actually a step ahead (A is already studying in that country and I can say that A is already accustomed to the culture and enjoying A's new life there, while I'm stuck here), A's place isn't any easier to maintain either. 

So, I made a promise to myself and by posting this, sealing (?) the deal.

I will work hard, harder than my previous lazy bum self, preparing myself to become a better person than my yesterday self. I will try not to compare myself to the others. :)

P.S.

A recommended me Lauv's Modern Loneliness, somehow hits me deep. And the lyrics represent my relationship with A at times of hectic.

P.S.S.

Language is a fluid skill, flexible in learning it and forgetting it. I used tons of auto-correct while writing this, I mean, I'm not that good in English, but not that bad to search the spelling of forever...TT