Writer's Block or Something Like That

Writer's Block

Is it writer's block that I'm experiencing right now?

Is it why I can't write anything even though I usually write quite well?

Or is it just me justifying my procrastination?

Probably the last one.

I am the type of person to write everything small things I need to do on a paper (somewhere... I tend to take any random paper near me to take notes and put them back randomly too, and thus, the foolish me forget). This way, I 'plan' things I need to do. Oh, but, my lazy side do get the best of me most of the time...

Well, that's probably how I come to procrastinate tasks. 

To be completely honest, I do feel bad postponing the 'plans' I made. I, sometimes, feel that I am too strict on myself by making 'plans' that I need to do. So, I tell myself, 

I know you don't want be pressured and because we are the same person, if you get stressed, I get will get the same equal of stress. So, I will put a huge gap (in the schedule) for you to take things slow and digested well. 

Yes.

Contrary to me myself being kind to myself by adding less pressure on self, I still procrastinate (sadly but is a fact).

And this, feeling, friend, it's like me getting betrayed by someone you'd trusted all your life on, but to worsen it all, that person is yourself.

Somehow, seeing how I felt betrayed on myself, emphasizes a tiny bit of self-pressure that I initially don't want to drag on to this matter, something I despise and trying hard to avoid ('cuz once I get that under the weather, it's just bad...like bad). 

Wait,

Is this some kind of loop? 

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I should really start doing my essay on the third week of class.